To die for art: No one takes the idea seriously anymore, and yet people do it every day. Just ask Agrado (Antonia San Juan), who makes a curtain speech on the subject in All About My Mother. Standing center stage in a theater in Barcelona, where she has presented herself impromptu, Agrado offers to tell the story of her life as a stand-in for the scheduled performance, which was to have been A Streetcar Named Desire. Of course, she’s always wanted to play Blanche; but for those who choose to stay, she says with a coquettish wriggle, she’ll just talk about herself, since she has “a lot of authenticity.” Her breasts, for example, which she bought in Paris, are authentic and cost a lot. The laser hair removal wasn’t cheap, either, at four to six sessions for the full body. (She used to be a truck driver. You can imagine.) The nose job, as it happened, was a waste of money, because a year after she had it, a john hit her and ruined the whole thing. But that’s the only expense she would have spared herself. Do the arithmetic, Agrado says with a smile no less broad for being lopsided, and you can understand, she’s given everything for her authenticity, so she can be exactly like her dreams.
In All About My Mother, and in our world, too, people put more than money into living such dreams. They risk getting their throats cut. They overdose; they contract HIV. But that’s not exactly what the movie is about. Better to say it’s about the survivors: the ones who are left with nothing but the art that someone else died for.
Written and directed by Pedro Almodóvar, All About My Mother is the story of six months in the life of Manuela (Cecilia Roth)–the six months after the loss of her son, who dies for art. Slender, blond, poetic and just turned 17, he perishes on the streets of Madrid right before Manuela’s eyes, after attending a performance of A Streetcar Named Desire. His fatal mistake: being too avid for the autograph of the star who played Blanche. Chasing after her departing taxi, he is struck down at the cross-street and killed.
This first-reel catastrophe, so clearly foreshadowed and so inescapable, is of course a kind of extraction. Almodóvar boils down all the harms that might befall a young gay man and bottles them as melodrama. And what a brilliant job of bottling it is! However much the disaster is expected, Almodóvar makes it chaotic, kinesthetic, terrifying, heart-rending: a sudden tumble of glass and pavement and out-of-sync sound, which is shot in slow-motion but feels like it’s double-time. This isn’t direction–it’s realization. From this point on, we don’t need to read Manuela’s grief in her face (though it’s there all the same in Roth’s performance, even when she’s smiling). The knowledge that the worst can and does happen has now been compacted and intensified, much as the flavorings on your kitchen shelf are concentrated.
And, like the row of bottles on your kitchen shelf, All About My Mother is drenched in color, all of it too saturated to be natural, yet fully authentic.
The color, though already extraordinary in the early scenes, becomes full-spectrum when Manuela leaves Madrid. With a load of grief too mountainous to be borne in her present circumstances, she returns to Barcelona, where her son was born. There she can search for someone on whom to dump a portion of her mourning. In Barcelona, she also can revisit the world of theatrical artists and street people–characters such as Agrado–among whom she once had lived, in the years before she became a professional woman with a steady job. She can momentarily dip into their existence, as if she, too, had been fated to die for art. She can, with some resistance and initial bitterness, resume her real destiny, which is to succor others and help life to go on; and in her own life, she can dwell amid the multihued art that is everywhere in Barcelona, from the dressing rooms of a theater to the gorgeously tiled apartment of a street hustler.