As I write, the world is filled with fear. I am having one of those reactions that psychologists describe as a stress response. I suppose I’m not alone, though. A friend calls and says, “You hung a flag yet? Anyone who’s been to Cuba, you better hang a flag.” “Cuba?” I ask, startled. “You don’t mean that weeklong human rights trip seventeen years ago?”
“You poor naïve child. I’m sending you a big one. Hang it on your porch.”
In the newspaper, I read of Muslims who are shaving their beards and removing their veils. I read of blacks who are embracing suspect profiling. There’s an unsubstantiated rumor on the Internet of Barney Frank hugging Strom Thurmond just before he fainted.
“It’s that list they’ll be drawing up in the Office of Homeland Security,” explains a fellow paranoid as we shop for bottled water. “Nobody wants to be on that.” Then she points out the physical resemblance between Tom Ridge and J. Edgar Hoover. She believes in reincarnation. I do not, but…it really is uncanny.
Another friend calls to say she’s been reading the Washington Post. “Sally Quinn’s got gas masks for everyone in her family. Her doctor gave her a stock of antibiotics, enough for her and all the servants.” The word “triage” begins to rise uncomfortably in my mind. Who gets to stockpile antibiotics in this new world order? If I went to a doctor for a little “extra” medication, he’d turn me in for drug dealing. If minorities suffer from unequal access to medical treatment now, what happens when panicked hordes make a run on hospitals for limited supplies of anthrax vaccine?
Not that any of this will do any good anyway, I suppose. My mother reminds me of the bomb shelters that sprang up during the 1950s. “I worried too,” she said. “But you can’t control this sort of thing on an individual level. Will you never go to the beach for fear of being too far from the shelter? Will you never take off the gas mask for fear of smelling the roses?” A friend of mine who’s a psychologist says that it is precisely the terrifying lack of control that is sending so many people over the edge. She says that lots of fragile sorts have been showing up at Bellevue to apologize for having driven a plane into the World Trade Center. The less fragile ones have been busy actually hijacking Greyhound buses and rushing into cockpits in states of extreme agitation.
On the news, crusty old senators disclose that they have participated in various government war games, in which they role-played all sides of the conflict in the event of hypothetical disasters. The crusty old senators worry me; they move stiffly and are so relentlessly formal that they refer to themselves in the third person, like Bob Dole. I suspect them of playing these games in the groves of the Bohemian Club, with the expectation that whatever happens they will retire to the bar for whisky sours afterward. All this is a too glib way of saying that I simply don’t see them coming up with quite the same strategies and outcomes that Al Qaeda might.